...yes, I know. It seems so easy to say.
"Alright. I'm happy now."

But for once, while writing it, I really feel like it. It's as if I wanted to say to the whole world that I love them.

There are so many things coming in my life. So many stupid things, in a way that even if I decided to write my own autobiography, people would think that it's way too cliche and exagerated.
But nevermind.

Tonight is a night when I don't want to think of all those things. Strange stuff somehow keep happening to me, and sometimes it's good stuff. And for those things, I feel like I should stop feeling so down.

So yeah. I don't have time, I don't have money, I'm studying things I'm not even interested in bu WHATEVER. There's still some good things and that's why I'm still fighting.

So, encouraged by this sudden urge of optimism, I decided to do an update here. How strange. But it feels good still. I once more found back people I like a lot, and many other things. I really should stop giving up on my account here - or even giving up on anything.

Honnestly, I wonder how long this will last. I would like it to last forever. I like that state of mind; I like this motivation.
But hey, no time for questions. This evening, I'm happy. I'm finally free from something that has devoured me during the past years, it will probably come bakc but just not now. I have stopped feeling so lonely, fearing abandon, and found back people who cared. It's good.
I have also discovered that I, too, could care for something. And that's probably one of the most important things.
It's high time for me to learn what the word "LIVE" could mean.
And I can't wait.

And you, all: take care.

Lia

...Weeeeeeell, let's say that "being back" did not actually mean "being really active". Right?
Right.

Truth to be said, I'm having quite a hard time right now. I mean, I'm okay, but there are many things I have to think of, to do, to take care of, and etc...

Studies, applying for jobs, major debts to take care of, wondering what I will do "later", finding a way to get this f***ing driving licence that I already failed at twice, having to deal with my oh-so-incredibly-unusual love life which sounds more like a bad soap than real life...

That's a lot in my head, but I try to think positive. Actually, I'm quite happy, honnest. I have awesome friends, good books to read, good music to listen to, maybe a job that would last one week (but would be quite well-paid), almost finished my cursus in University, so everything's not bad.

Actually, the worst thing among all the others is that it seems that I can't get myself to write or draw anything. It'm full of ideas and I just can't seem to find a way to put them on paper. It's a really uncomfortable feeling, especially for someone who spends her time creating. Is that what you cal an artist block? Damn, I can't wait for it to disappear.

What's more, I have very, very little time to do what I want. I just don't get it: where is time going? Why is it going so fast? It seems like I'm always in a rush. How frustrating, when I'd like to do so many things...

Ah well, this is my life. Nothing too interesting. I guess it's the usual rythm of life coming back after slow, long and wonderful holidays.
I think I should try to get back to work slowly now, not to be too much under pressure. I get so easily stressed and anxious! Now I have to find my rythm of work, and to get rid of all the bad habits I may have taken this summer.

I hope to be able to update a little more this account soon -clean once and for all all this old stuff that I really don't want to see anymore >< - and do my best to keep it nice and lively. I don't like it that my dA account constantly seems like it's abandoned!

But for now I have to go back into "real life", and taking care of my social life.

I don't know what I'm going to do with this account, but I swear that one day it will look more like a real artist room than a stupid internet page which has not been opened for three months at last!

Waiting for that day, I wish you all the best and deeply apologize for the chaos in that entry ><
Take care !

Lia

...a Elvish tale, by Lia.

Well, there. I am finally back. Really back, I mean.
I know I'm always here, swearing that I'll post more often, that I'll be more active, and etc... And then, I vanish for one year, two years...

But now I am back. Who knows for how long. It doesn't matter.

It took me about one week, but I totally emptied my message box, catching up on two years of absence.
I also posted my "new" art. All the stuff I did while I was away. I still have a lot to post, but most of it isn't finished yet. My ID, some digital drawings, even photomanipulation...and etc.

I went through my whole gallery, my journal. I made a massive clean-up, but I couldn't get myself to delete all of my old art.
Honnestly, even though these drawings look horrible and all, this is what drove me to the way I draw now. So... I found it just interesting, to let it there, in order to show how I had improved.

First drawing fanarts, copying images that already existed, then switching little by little to another kind of art, more personnal, with my style which I am finding slowly.

It goes the same for my English. I laughed so hard when reading my old journal entries! Right now I'm not speaking the best English ever, but when I arrived on this site, it was just truly terrible. So I am glad to see this improved too...

My writings too got a little more mature, but since I mostly write in French, I don't post on this site. I have a LiveJournal, an account on In Libro Veritas, and that's where I post my texts.

I am also working on my personnal website, in order to regroup all of my creations, and on my band's MySpace, which has been pretty inactive lately.

So many things to do, so little time. So many things that changed, too. I don't know if it's all for the best though, but I'll leave it for Time to tell...

Beside my activity on the Internet, I just finished my second year in uni in Lyon, still studying languages and literature, and I'm now desperately trying to get a job. I'd love to work in a bookshop, or in editions.

Psychologically though, I'm getting worse... I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personnality Disorder at the beginning of the year, but decided to ignore it and now I keep on struggling a lot with myself. It's no fun and people around me often have a hard time. I feel really sorry for that, but drawing, writing, and music, somehow helps me a lot to get out of my head. So I'll probably keep it on

Well, I guess that's all for now. Enough talking about me!

It's good to be back, to find back people I thought would've forgotten me... It makes me happy. I missed this site.
Ah... Onto the art, now.

Take care, people!

~*~Lia~*~

Hello everyone,

This was a hard decision to make. Very very hard, actually.
Today's my dA birthday. It's been one year since I registered... Woah.
But now, I realize that I was spending way too much time on this site...

It's not like I don't like the site, neither like I have nothing more to post ; actually, I have over 30 new drawings way better than the most recently posted here that could be put on the site.
...It's just that I don't have no more time.
With those big exams at the end of the year, the work we have to do, and all the stress we have to deal with, it's just not possible to do anything here.

So I'm very sorry to announce you that this account will be on a hiatus until summer holidays... Meaning, not before July. Maybe June, if I have time between the written exam and the spoken exam.

Of course, it will be the same for my club I let down too, . However, if anyone wants to manage it a moment (until I come back) just send me an email, I'll give you the "keys".

I want to -once again- apologize to everyone I owe a drawing to - I promised you'd have them, and you'll have them, even if it has to be in 3 years you'll still have them.

Last but not least... I wanted to say happy birthday to , who's old now ~_^ hehe, almost... one year older than me -_-
You'll have your present! ^^ Don't worry about it!

Now, I think I'm done...
Well, see you in July, everyone...
...And SMILE! It's not like I'm dead, and life is beautiful ^^

~*~Lia~*~

PS : On a lighter note, even if no one cares, my mother finally agreed to buy me this hide Tshirt I've been longing to have for quite a long time on ebay... And she also said that I could dye the top of my hair red if I manage to have my BAC of French ^_^ Can't wait!

PPS : Wanted to say thanks to , , , and (don't worry, I'll still be on msn ^^ And don't forget White Day XP) for the support...

My friends on dA

Mood : ...Tired (again! Yes -_-').
Listening to : Carols - Ayumi Hamasaki (prettyyy song!)
Thoughts : "I-Want-To-Sleep"

Hi there! ^^

First of all, something that ~xo-crystal-dream-xo passed me ^^'

If you answer to this journal...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Let's see if I'm able to do that ^^'

Then... Mmmh... looks like my kiriban 1234 has been missed T_T Oh well.
Anyway, next kiriban is 1500!! ^_^ Try not to miss it!
*but must do something for her 1234 pageviews now ^^*

Being October 2nd here, in 3 days it's my birthday ^^
I will be 15! *dances* Hehe, nice number ^_^
I can't wait for that. I'm organizing a huge RPG at home specially for that! ^____^
Lol, but it's my life and no one cares -_-' Sorry... ^^'

Change of subject! ^^
It's a critical situation at home! Our server is slowly dying, meaning I'm going to lose all of my drawings, AMVs, texts, musics, everything everything everything >< ...My only hope is that we manage to save everything before the hard drive die... Wish me luck ><

And final change of subject before going to sleep!
I asked this last week but no one answered T_T So I'll ask it again.
I'm seriously thinking of creating a Print account and a stock account - if I have enough time and money!
...Do you think I should? Just asking your advice here... So I hope you'll answer ~_^

So.. that's all. Bu-bye! ^_^

~*~Lia~*~

"What do I have to do" list
-Lineart for a collab with ~xo-crystal-dream-xo
-Collab with ~Raybrandt (waiting for the lineart - I don't lose hope ~_^)
-Kiriban for ~melam (her character Spinner) > sketch done
-Kiriban for *Arkle (Sephiroth) > sketch done
-~xo-crystal-dream-xo's OC, Inoru
-Stuff I'll do during classes. Probably lots.
-AMVs. Lots. But not enough time.
-Fanfic : typing my RosexEd fanfiction. One day, maybe?
-Entry contest for =cosmosue (17/10)
-Entry contest for ~Spirit-the-Titan (8/10) > almost done
-Entry contest for =azzumail (16/10)
-Entry contest fir ©Subversive-imaginati (5/10)
-Rose fanarts for ~Deviousness2
-A "lyrics" serie (will post photos)
-My real-size Ed poster... One day i'll finish it...
-Pic for the 1234 pageviews ^^

My friends







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People I admire


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Gotta love their galleries...


People who admire me (that sounds weird ^^''')



Thanks to them! ^^


Clubs I'm in




My own club!



My fanfiction(s)

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My AMV(s)

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My memegen[dot]net account with stupid quizz I created with a friend

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